AbuseMeNot

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Forged Reality by AbuseMeNot, literature

Samuel. - Epilogue by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Synth 2000-2004 by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Synth 2000-2004

i dont know what exactly to say... this is the only way that i can push away my sorrows and formulate some sort of... Totem, euligy or whatever you want to say... but Synth Michael Torlette' died yesterday. He was only 4, just turned. Hardly any younger then my little brother. Synth was a strange child.... just like his dad i guess... his mother never told eury about the birth defect. about the heart murmur. how she turned down the surgery when he was born. i dont blame her, no one does. there was a 50 50 chance that he would have died... synth's heart went into what the doctor called "little seizures" last night. eury couldnt get him to

Not A Victim Like You by AbuseMeNot, literature

Alex Would Say by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Alex Would Say

there once was a boy named alex who had bruises on his arms and face. alex liked to play at the park. parents at the park saw the bruises on alex's arms and face. parents asked alex "where did you get those bruises?" "At school i get beat up." alex would say. then one day the police came and asked "where did you get those bruises?" "At school i get beat up." alex would say. they nodded and they took alex away. they put his arm on a machine and they asked him "where did you get those bruises?" "At school i get beat up." Alex would say. "where do you go to shcool?" asked a police officer. "at home." Alex would say.

Raindrop Kisses by AbuseMeNot, literature

Stupid Silly Children by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Stupid Silly Children

close that door you stay away from here close my eyes you can't ever be again so near **** stupid silly boy stupid silly boy.... **** you tried to prove you loved me only made me further see only reason you were near was for sex... who'd of believed? **** stupid silly girl stupid silly girl.... **** should of seen it in his eyes should have seen through his lies should have ended it in the start should have been smart. **** stupid silly boy stupid silly girl.... **** shouldn't have gotten mixed up in this grown up world funny how their loyalties unflurled stupid silly children pretending to be adults... guess the br

If My Hand Could Block The Sun by AbuseMeNot, literature

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If My Hand Could Block The Sun

on clearer days I can see the lights from my bedroom door, on windy nights I can smell the lake as it drifts to me from the shore the traffic lights silently change a thousand times a day but I'm still waiting, yeah I'm still waiting if my hand could block the sun, would we ever wake up? If I turned back all these clocks would that be time enough? I can't remember exactly when this longing began but I know it wasn't before the day you touched my hand, laugh and shout in blissful daze and numbers are exchanged, I'm still waiting, yeah I'm still waiting if my hand could block the sun, would we ever wake up? If I tu

Click Your Life Away by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Click Your Life Away

If I could paint how I feel, I'd draw bullseye on your forehead my anger is not misdirected unless it somehow misses you time spent on hate, is time gone to waste , I watch you point and click your life away so cast the stones that I'll gladly catch and I'll throw them right back, I stand behind the things I say, you type the words you won't say to my face time spent on hate, is time gone to waste , I watch you point and click your life away it seems you've let me go again, just like the day you let me in, the best of intentions, you were never mine to begin with so step away from the fucking screen, see a world

Beggars Song by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Beggars Song

The traveler's song is simple and sweet. I listen as I recline in my seat. I hear of things that have gone by. I've never seen any of it and don't believe I'll ever try. I hear the word of the wind as it sweeps the clouds from the sky, But I don't understand it as the day begins to die. I don't understand the roughness of the souls of my feet. I don't walk the road that would let strangers and myself to meet. Quiet the world it always seems. Sweet though are midsummer, slanted sunbeams. Imphs are playing on my toes. I've got fantasies lined up in rows. My hands are clean my nails are short. I've got a cabin and a Labrador. I hav

Misfit at the Gates by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Misfit at the Gates

I hear the sound of the world breaking around me. I hear the sound of my soul being stole. I taste the sharp iron that floods my mouth. I hate the bruises that make it hard to breath. This makes things harder then I ever thought. This makes it hurt that my soul has already been bought. This can't be it this can't be what I'm meant to be. This isn't right I can't let this be the end. I gave up all hope and yet I still live. I prayed to god but I suppose my request the file clerk hid. I cried a river for all the pain. I can't go on I've broke my brain. I fell upon my face at the Golden gates, Listened as the angels laughed in their

Exactly What You Think It Is by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Exactly What You Think It Is

shiver...quiver...burn... its been a long day... and if these questions were yours what would you say? you dont know... i'm writing my answers on cheap paper napkins and now i'm turning off now im feeling pain its not what you think it is its not what it seems its just what you think it is these fights come from no where and they get to a point like mercury rising i seem to remember a feeling that was better and now i'm turning off now im feeling pain its not what you think it is its not what it seems its just what you think it is you dont know what it's like you dont feel like your giving away i'm just breaking down its

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Helplessness Pyramid by Daiichi, literature

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Helplessness Pyramid

There Hear that? Oh you don't? Listen closely Deafening silence That is the apparence Of being truly helpless To go beyond what's powerless To stop my hopes and my dreams alike The pain that comes when realization strikes Just 'cause I don't want my world to pass me by Doesn't mean things will change, no matter how I try Where Am I? Am I lost In blissful thoughts Or in the future? Either is no suture When I look at the present And my friends don't seem permanent I can only walk in a straight line Yet my friends turn cirlces around that line So that not one is there for the in-between With no choice but to leave the frie

Slowly Commiting Suicide by tortured-jewel, literature

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Slowly Commiting Suicide

Crying herself to sleep at night In the wee hours In the glow of the dim moonlight The shadows become her friends Pushing her to go on again Waiting to see her fall to the floor With a hard crash onto The bloodstained pillows She looks up to the sky Waiting for that one Special guy To phone her once more Her heart falls to pieces With a deafening ring Beside her ear But so close to her heart She answers with a whisper Trying hard to speak Through her tears He can never know He leaves her once more With no idea what She was looking for And her head falls to the bed again Wishing for him to save Her from herself

Motion Picture by tortured-jewel, literature

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Motion Picture

Pictures fall from shaking hands And softly crash onto the cold tile And the memories along with them Slowly dampen in the wetness of it all The camera moves Slowly shaking Upward Capturing her hurt The lights dim As her head begins to rise You can see her heart Within her eyes She takes a knife And kisses it softly Whispering to it Like it was her lover Holding it carefully She begins the ritual Slowly releasing The pain inside Blood falls to the floor And the camera captures it As it cascades down her arm Like a broken waterfall In anger now she Puts her wrist to her face And gently kisses All of her emotion

Learning Pyramid by Daiichi, literature

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Learning Pyramid

I'm Learning Now to look At the future Not as more failures But through all the layers I see shining rays of hope I think I'm beginning to cope With the kind of person I have been And my own true world I am living in And though it is taking so much this way My friends have helped me every step of the way I'm Smiling Just you look The future has Had enough of pain Invisible blood stains Slowly I may understand What it's like to finally stand And take friends' hands purely out of love Not 'cause I need them to keep me above Keep helping my friends, and I'm sure you will see, The fruit of your labor is a healthier me

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Synth 2000-2004 by AbuseMeNot, literature

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Synth 2000-2004

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Current Residence: is skipping in circles around the world
Favourite genre of music: Metal, Gothic Rap, Dark Rap, Dark Metal, Gothic Classical, Celtic
Favourite style of art: Realistic Anthro
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: Wndows Media Player
Wallpaper of choice: Changes Daily
Favourite cartoon character: Grr from Invader Zim, Bender of Futurama, Homer of the Simpsons, and Stewy of Family Guy
Personal Quote: AND THAT'S THE CYGONE WHORE THAT BIT MY NOSE OFF!!

Favourite Visual Artist

SaiSai

Favourite Movies

Dirty Work!

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

ICP, Type O Negative, ABK, My Dying Bride, Adema, Danzig, Nightwish, GWAR, Black Sabbath

Favourite Writers

The One that never brags

Favourite Games

Teasing starving people with Twinkies

Favourite Gaming Platform

Hehehe... any place higher then they are ;)

Tools of the Trade

twinkies, ho ho's, sim jim... anything else fattening to tease the hungry with.

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Music, writing, and drawing

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AbuseMeNot

Mar 8, 2005

Sammy Girl

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so i met sam, the dreaded Ex that i have so feared I fear no more, now i just wonder how the hell she was ever with jon. Get this, when i first see her, she is quite heavier then what she is in the pictures, which makes me feel good about myself ((thats bad i know)) but well then i see she is wearing a butterfly clad shirt. This shocks me, because all i have heard really about her taste in things is ICP. now as dinner goes on with her and willis and me and jon ((just a dinner thing with her bf and us)) well i see interesting things. she is bossy as FUCK i mean... god... willis cant eat without her ordering him how. and then she reveals the

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AbuseMeNot

Mar 2, 2005

worthless time

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i sit here and i stare at the screen and i realize for the millionth time that ive lost track of everything. i realize that i am nothing but a player in a god forsaken game that i seem to be loosing. i work, i sleep, i... exist and that seems to be the entirity of it all. lately i've been mending old wounds and healing a lot of crap, but the strange thing is im just begining to care even less. I exist and that is the only sure thing i know. - I think about rules i think about the things none of us have control of. Having to eat, work survive, to be with someone else, if not in a relationship, as a friend. I watch wrestling and it makes me ha

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AbuseMeNot

Feb 16, 2005

playboy

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so lately ive been feeling good about myself. good enough even to make the decision that i want to meet sam, jon's ex. someone i have a great.... inadequecy problem with. i feel like she is better then me. but i want to make that feeling for away so i want to meet her today i discovered a week ago jon signed up for playboy. yes. playboy. on line though so that brings a whole paranoid "is he looking at that stuff while he's talking to me???" and then i just... i never was mad at him for it. i just suddenly felt so fuckin ugly. so jon and i didnt talk for like an hour and a half ((i wasnt supposed to see this, he was checking his email and wel

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rendemona

Jul 31, 2004

Want to be IN the Gargoyles DVD?

Some good news for Gargoyles fans - you could (even inadvertantly) be in the Season 1 DVD set of Gargoyles - scheduled for a 10th Anniversary release this autumn!! TV Shows on DVD relays an exciting message from Gargoyles creator Greg Weisman posted at the "Ask Greg" column of the Station 8 Gargoyles Fan Site. "I've just been informed that Disney is sending a video crew to The Gathering of the Gargoyles, our annual convention, to tape the fans, guests, events, etc. for the 'Extras' section of the DVD. That means if you attend the convention this August 6th-8th in Montréal, you have a chance to actually be on the DVD! Let that sink in for a second..." If you're interested in the event, check out the con's website here. However, TV Shows on DVD does warn, "Bear in mind that there are no guarantees: plans for DVD supplements change all the time, and this might not end up on the release after all. Or they might decide to push it to one of the later season releases (which may or may not happen, depending on sales of the Season 1 compilation). These things probably won't happen, but consider this a 'disclaimer' in case they do!"

hehe cool